I really dont like it when people lie to me. Yes, I'm talking about Ray. oh boy. Maybe its not really lying but i think he doesnt really like me around anymore. Even though it pains him to say it i think he enjoys me not being around. I should be crying right about now.. but its like i expected it. Its like i expected all the times i ask him if he had a good time and he answers yes its only a yes to make me feel good. Well i cant be sure if hes just being this way right now or if its a constant thing. I hurt someone really close to me, it feels like s**t. That and it feels like s**t when i ask him.. "Hey did you have fun today?" and he smiles and says "Yes" and then online later he askes me if i had fun and i explain my situation. But if he explains his, if he ever does.. it all goes "down hill" from there.. i feel bad about writing this too ... Why do all my good intentions have to ******** my and others lives up? I had faith in me for a while. Its just shattered.
Lady Aquila · Sun Feb 13, 2005 @ 06:37am · 0 Comments |