suicide
is it too much?
i sat there throwing up for so long
i cried last night
i dont cry, i didnt even cry when my dad died while i was 14,
but last night i did
it was horrible
i got almost no sleep and when i finally did it wasnt for long
all i could do was dream about her....
why? someone needs to tell me
i need help i must be so screwed up
i am a horrible person, and this sucks so much
i knew i was lucky, i didnt deserve her
she deserves so much better, but i can't accept that
it took me the longest time to believe that someone so amazing truly liked me
and now i wish i never had started believing
it led to the worst night of my life
she doesnt have to know any of this
but if she does need to know anything it is that i still love her
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