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Ah, the night before Christmas Eve. Today I was sick at home and sat in my PJs all day with my marvelous cousin Hil, playing Mario Party 7 and eating See's truffles from the box. Such thoughtful and emotionally-deep antics got me thinking...what exactly is Christmas?

Some say it's Christ's birthday; some say it's a time for giving and family get-togethers; some say it's the best time of year to get as smashed as possible; some say it's a silly abhorration of today's culture that should be ignored. I say...

The Christmas tree is alight with tiny sedentary pixies of nightclub rainbow hues, catching on the tight surfaces of the ornaments, and Karen Carpenter's lovely pained voice is wafting through the sounds of Hil and my little sister Meredith playing Super Smash Bros. Melee. My stocking this year is a crumpled-up mail order bag that I decorated--pop-art style--with Stabilo pens, and I made cookies iced to look like emotes and Domo-kuns in red and green. There's a pink orchid in a pot on my far left, and on my immediate right there's a bizarre little square of blank green posterboard. Volume 12 of the Naruto manga is sitting open on the floor just below my rolling chair. My head hurts a bit in the back of my eyes and I'm wearing a t-shirt that has long since been signed in Sharpie marker by friends I've nearly forgotten, yet could never forget. I can smell salmon coming up from downstairs and pine coming from a ways behind me.

Last year at this time, I was in a world I found sweet enough, but I didn't know who I was. My cross-country move this summer seemed to fix that; I gave up the designer name brands and country clubs of my illustrious past for people who finally seem to understand and truly love me.

This season, my thoughts are scattered far away, with others as well as in my own skull. That's what makes this time of year so special, I think, besides the random bursts of insight and imagery. And so, with the holidays approaching faster than any of us ever could've prepared for, I want to say:

To friends~ Thank you for standing by me through my dramatic angst attacks and self-induced spasms of elegant egotism. You have truly helped me over all of the speedbumps so far...I love you all, and will be fighting right alondside you as long as I can. 3nodding Thank you, Kassandra, Claire, Jessica, Sheena and LAW! xd

To family~ Thanks for staying at home with me all the time and accepting me in my truest form. This only applies to one person on Gaia, but I love her like a sister ^^ ...hey, wait...well, thank you, Meredith, for being my little old lady sibling!

To the Gaians I know and love~ Society says the Internet is a scary place. I don't doubt that, but...it can also be the place where you meet friends you have never imagined would be there. Thanks, all of you, for helping me be wise, happy and clear-headed, and for continually assuring me that I'm normal and a-okay through all of my outbursts 4laugh Extra props to Portquel, EnmuX, Hyper Mushrambo, Enchanted Marionette, and (last but most certainly not least) Grave Zero. heart

To Brighteyes~ I have no doubt that you'll be reading this, but you have absolutely no idea who you are. I'm sorry I can't say this to you person-to-person; I'm afraid of the outcome. You'll know someday that you're the object of my dazed dreams...all I want for Christmas is you, but I would never want to destroy you with my melodramatic/romantic touch. I love you, and I thought you should know that. You are loved after all.

Well, my lovelies, thank you for reading this rather lengthy holiday post. I wish you all Season's Greetings, Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah, Stellar Solstice (XD), and et cetera! I want to say to all of you...

I LOVE YOU ALL, AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT! mrgreen