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i feel so bad i feel like im controling ppls lives and destring then my friends dada hates me and he told them that if they dont stop seeing me there will be consiquences.......because of me they will never be th same because they choice me insted of there parent. i feel like im makeing ppls lives a living hell for them and i warned them that if i find out that he did anything i would call the cops and now it seems there upset at me and i feel bad i know they love him and yet i know they want him to stop. if i end up doing this i may lose a friend and i know they will never forgive me and i dont know wht to do in the life that i have with the life i have worked so hard to build then i make it tumble to the s**t i made it out of because i cant face my own fears and i cant seem to handle it all the thouhts going in and out of my head is school the relationship i destroyed and the though of something i dont want to do and i cant make it stop im going mad and its kill me i dont want them to get hurt yet i dont want to lose them what would be the best option for me to do?¿