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I'm in serious need to get serious. I've lost my mind, I've lost my heart, the only thing I have left is my sould and I dont know if even that is intact. I get lost in this world where dreams and reality mix, knowing myself unable to dream but haunted by dreams that wont let me rest every night. I never understand my dreams, which have frequently become chases or quests. I want to look for something, but I dont know where to look. I dont know what I'm looking for in the first place. I want happiness, but how can it be an end? Its a reward for getting to an end, to THE end, if you lived life well. Everything comes back to you, that's what karma is. Even if you're alone in the darkest cave, your words will bounce off the walls and return to you, sometimes as hope, some as despair. You reap what you sow. You must tend to live this life without regrets, or you may lose more than your body when you die. I'm injured, in despair, no one knows about me yet all seem to know me. How can people I've never met know my name and how can I know the faces of those I've never met? Why are my dreams infested with mystery? With plots or lack of them imposible to understand? What am I afraid of? What am I capable of? Am I afraid of being capable? I dont know. Im utterly and completely lost. I need someone to help me find my way, but I dont know what my way is. Can I reach my path without aid? Can I find my heart and mind once more? I'm lost... will you guide me? Or am I destined to lead you to your path and never find my own?