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I know I'm in love. But why do I hurt so much on the inside? Sometimes I want to cry for no reason at all, or maybe because I'm scared... But what am I really scared of?

Maybe I'm scared of the thought of my love.....leaving me....just like how I feel everyone else is...

He's really the only one I feel that's left for me to love...he's acutally I'd ever be able to love...this much...and that's supposed to make me happy, right?

But nowadays, it's seems like he's drifting farther and farther away from me...

I really want him to trust me, and I want to trust him, but I already do, I always have...but I still found myself wondering, 'Am I still his only love?'
*shakes head* I really shouldn't think like that, of course I'm still his only love! But...why does my heart start to hurt whenever I say his name in my mind?

And I really hate it when I have to hold back all my feelings irl... with him, I want every feeling and emotion that I feel for him to leak out so that he can see how much I really care for him.

I want to express my love for him with more than just words...but then again...maybe it's just too much for me to ask for.