And now for a "DAMN Im sad!" post.((Warning for those of you *cough* Mei-chan *cough* who don't want to know such...personal... things about me, dont read this.))
WHYYYYYY!? Now that I don't have anyone that I care for in that special way, everyone around me is getting boyfriends and girlfriends and close male friends that they wish they could be with. Here I am, plenty of guys who I know would go out with me, yet none of them strike me as someone I would go out with. Its so damn frustrating! I mean that in more than one way. I want SEX damnit! It sucks that I have such strong morals and that at the same time Im so damn unsatisfiable.... T.T
Of all the things I may miss about going out with *shudder,lurch,vomit* HIM, that has to be the one (if not only) thing I miss most. Having someone else do it for me. I mean, it's not like I am desperate for it. If I was desperate I would've done it a long time ago. But still, now that I know what it's like it's hard not to want it again. Sadly, there are only two guys I would feel comfortable enough with to let them do anything and one of those guys lives in Michigan and the other one has a GF.
But aside from the completely carnal side of it, I want someone to just be around and get that fluttery feeling like if the world were to fall away from under me I would just float away. I want someone I can just lay next to and not feel uncomfortble. Meh. I want to much, neh?
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