i was goin through some old e-mails i saved from my friends, and i notice how much we have changed in only a year. i really miss hangin out with them almost everyday, but i've been busy lately i don't have really that much time with thm anymore.. crying . but i'm trying really hard to make time for them, it's just so many things have come up....don't ya hate when that happens? but one things for sure we will always be friends forever cuz really good friends like mine don't come along often. they're really important to me, so is my family i can't stress that enough. i don't kno wut i'd do if anything were to happen to either of them....but i will do wut ever it takes to make sure nothing bad happens to them. i'm sure u would do the same. cuz u really don't kno how much u love somthing till it's gone...i've already gone through that and i don't want to lose anyone else that is close to me....my grandpa died last may, and i kno i must seem pathetic to b complaining about his death...but he's the first loved one i lost....and i kno many pple who lost more than me and it makes me feel guilty for mourning over just one loss...but to me it's not just ONE loss, it's like a peice of my life just died with him....i just wish i could of spent more time with him...time that he deserved when he was still alive...i miss him sooo much! and he knos that...but i don't think he would want me to b sad for him...it'd just kill him to see his family in agony...so i'll try my best for him to keep living my life as i want to live it and b as happy as i could. but i'm human..i have my bad days and i have my good. but the one thing that will never change is the love i have for my grandpa, my family, and my friends. and that is what makes life worth living 3nodding .
 xX Lady Phantom Xx · Tue Nov 21, 2006 @ 06:00pm · 0 Comments |
