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"I love you"

"I...I-I love you too."

It seems two people stand in a field of flowers.... but it's not jexious...no... the two people he know... they are--

-RING RING!!! RING RING!!! RING RING!!!!-

Jexious's cell phone rings on the nearby table... it's his alarm clock.... it reads 5:00 a.m. ... he hits the snooze and falls back asleep...

The dream... it's comming again.... this time... Jexious is standing in front of the other person. he says "I love you..." to jexious... Jexious smiles and ---

-RING RING!!! RING RING!!! RING RING!!!!-

Jexious wakes up and grabs his cell phone and throws it out of his bedroom door which lays open due to the door latch being broken... jexious falls back asleep...

He sees the person again... this time distant from him.... it feels as if jexious is actually in his dream and controlling himself... he feels every emotion inside his body... he sees the people now... chu and riku... chu walks over to him and repeats the phrase, "I love you, Jexious..." Jexious thinks about this for a moment.... He wants to say 'I love you back,' but.... he can't... he is unable to... he wants to say these words so bad... but it feels as if the only thing that overwelms him is only friendship... Jexious speaks to chu in a whisperly manner, unable to hear what he says... Chu smiles...

"I understand.." he walks back over to riku to tell him that he loves him... the only thing that jexious feels is pain and jealousy...

<It seems I can never get over you, Hayden, but if I am with you... I don't know what I'm feeling... Is it that my love for you only appears when I cannot reach you? could it just be jealousy, or fear? I have no clue myself. But... that feeling of wanting to love you forever will allways be there... Jealousy or not... It will allways be there...>

The light flashes around Jexious and then he finds himself still asleep in his bed... He notices a shadowy object run out of his room as fast as it can... Jexious jumps up and chases after it as fast as he can... words run through his head..

<You will never get over my master, Mr.Child... and you will never have him either... Nothing will help you... nothing>

Jexious trips over an invisible object as the shadowy figure escapes out through the cracks of an opened window... Jexious knew who the shadowy character was...Whisper... Chu's spiritual pet....

<Maybe he's right... Maybe I CAN'T.... Maybe it's all in my head... Maybe love isn't real... Maybe it's all lust.. all of it... is nothing...>

Jexious stands up but continues to look at the ground... his head searing in pain... Tronoex walks in from outside, looking at Jexious... he says nothing... he just sits by his leg and lays his head on his foot, liiking at the ankle. Jexious sits by Tronoex and holds him close...letting the day fly by as he pets the soft fur of his little puppy.