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Men are still on my roof, One waved and chucked a tile at me as a sign of goodwill.
I have Garbage up loud. This makes the poster of Shirly happy I think. She's right next to my head, I never noticed how close she is. *Paranoia*
Tired of the violence, I couldnt care less
Today was Ian's birthday. Yay.
I find it a tad painful that Hale couldnt spend more then a few hours with me on my birthday because she had 'stuff' to do, Yet she can spend a whole week celebrating Ian and going to dinner with him.
I dont know why I'm jealous. *sigh*
This was so unexpected, I never knew I'd get caught.
Play boomerang with your demons, Shoot to kill and you'll pop them off.
Bang Bang.
Today was all tiring and I'm ment to be looking up Brecht stuff.
But I'm lazy.
And I feel all weird. I sharpend my pencil in art with a craft knife.
It's the closest I've gotten to a razor blade in three weeks or more.
I just felt weird, All those thoughts running in my head you know... It's just hard to look away from something like that.
I should have thrown them away.
If I was really over it I would, Right?
But I cant. I dont want to. But why am I keeping them, It's like tempting me to use them again.
God, I dont know.
This is not the place to talk about it I guess.
I'm sorry that I hurt you, But please dont ask me why
Yeah, So today was today.
Laid back and lazy.
We talked about the fact that King George came from Venus with the whores from the ThreePenny Opera and you get freckles because they sprinkle them off the edge of Venus or something.
Guess it's just a Lilly, Racheal and me thing.
So tired. Got to organise stuff for tomorrow. Film stuff.
Ohh yeah, Got invited to Ghangas Khan for Ian's party thing. (Spelling Mongolian warlords is not my strong point)
The trick is to keep breathing....
I'm always in a mellow state of mind while listening to this song. So good.
Reminds me of people.
Was going to talk to Uther but never got around to it.
I want to see how much of the after-party he remembers.
People need to have more parties.
Good parties where I dont get completely dead within the first two hours. gonk
But I do want more Nos, That was fun. Before I started skulling cheep wine and cheeper vodka and before things when black.
I think Sean was right;
"This is you: "....."
This is you living that party down: "....." Never."
You'll never come, Sucking your thumb. Better off dumb.
Tiredness.
I should work. Damnit, I always end saying that I 'should' go do something but I hardly ever do.
I need to get the Brecht stuff down. And if Hale isnt home tonight I am going to be very very very ******** off. I cant call all those people alone! T-T
Make me pretty person, Make me feel like I belong
Damnit, Cant any site about Brecht not be in German? (Wait, Was that a double negitive? Ugg, To tired)
I have nothing wrong with German, I just cant read it! *Sigh*
I ramble too long.
Ending with, Letting go.