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I talked to him today, we got in a fight though, and I didn't want to love him anymore, but deep down I still do.

I went outside and hangout with my friends to keep him off of my mind. I forgot about him till I started to think about friends, and I realized that I wasn't spending anytime with the friend whom mattered most to me.

I kept thinking about him, for the disease wouldn't go away. I realized if he help me understand, if I let him explain and help him understand me I wouldn't be in this mess.

I don't know why I love him, I guess he made me feel different than anyone else made me feel. He made me feel specail and warm. He made me giggle and blush all the time.

But I see him happy with his lover, and makes me happy. <3

I hurted myself by hurting
him.