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Trust, hope, and friends,
What a pitiful end.
Hurtful comments, hate messsages,
Mixed with betrayed glances.
Bestfriends I thought,
A place of true belonging I believe she had bought.
Cruel words and betrayal leaves an unwashable stain,
She backstabbed me for her gain.

Jealousy, envy, wrath for instance,
Those emotions itself kills off the feeling of acceptance.
All the words you flung at me in your free will,
Leaving the reminding scars for the kill.

Behind my back,
So many untrue things you say about me, I lost track.
You drove out my sanity,
Now I am left with grieving anxiety.

Is this how you want it,
Tearing apart my soul bit by bit?
You must enjoy seeing me in pain,
Your anger and greed is like pouring rain.

Are you doing this to comfort your twisted soul?
Have our friendsip turned to blackened coal?
You are so wrapped in your own pain and failure,
You fill me with your same anger.

You always got everything, atleast once someone thought I am better than you!
Thats what you said though you barely knew.
Under my flawless disguise,
Can you see all those emotional scars under in such demise.

Do you know how much I gave up?
All the happiness I have dumped.
Have you ever noticed how many things you have that I am missing?
All the things I pretended I had in my surreal living.

You wrote about how many tears you had cried each night,
How much pain have to fight.
Atleast you have the tears left to cry,
And pain to feel by.

Maybe I am just an unfeeling being,
Void of any sympathetic feeling.
Haven't you ever heard that nobody can be truely perfect?
That everybody have their own deffects.


She is so cold and emotionless, A real backstabber nothing less.
An innocent face but the heart of a devil,
You said behind my back, talk about colourful.

You aren't the only one in pain and sorrow,
You aren't the only one who's happiness is borrowed.
Unlike you, I gave up on crying a long time ago,
But my heart has not turned stone cold.

In our little community,
Nothing is in felicity.
You can not show your egoes and weaknesses,
Because of the reasons shaded in darkness.

Go ahead and pretend you are weak,
Just cause you will act meek.
Turn everyone against me,
Getting me to the lowest of my life, thats your key.

Rise above my sinking soul,
It seems like an easy enough goal.
Miss cold and emotionless is no more,
When she begins to hit the floor.

Tell you this though you might not have a clue,
After all this you put me through,
I will not sink so easily,
Your plans I will predict perfectly.

Fool me once, fool me twice,
But on the third time, it won't be so easy and nice.
Hurt me so deep,
I will return your present ten times as steep.

Friend is no more,
Only thing left is a deserted moore.
Dedicated to a friend from sometime long ago,
Who then turned to my foe.....