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Eh, Friday Night I watched "Bowling for Columbine" and just watching it kinda made me think that yeah the U.S. is pretty crayz, kinda giving me thoughts of moving to Canada, but I probably won't anyways, I love to many people here to just leave it all.
I love Anna heart I have always kinda had a crush on her since I saw here in the TLM, but I kinda just was to shy to say anything. When we became friends I was happy ^^ but still kinda sad I couldn't say alot of things that I can now >w<
God I love her! heart

Well about the Columbine thing, everytime I hear my mom yelling, or my dad toys with my emotions and scares me mentally, or my brother just bitches about small things, or people telling me what to do I just wanna go to school and cause the next Columbine....even in my heart I just wanna kill someone >< but I don't want to and I can't do it either so I just totally block it away and hold it for another day. I don't know, if I ever get the urge to do that, I will just run into a desserted area and just shoot myself or something >> but I can't do that either I don't know, I think I need psychological help *has been thinking about getting some of that*

Here are some things I think might be the cause of this:
1. my mom
2. my dad
3. my brother
4. parents that hurt or yell at their kids
5. young or teenage girls that cry
6. not seeing or talking to my friends
7. wanting to go out more
8. too much freakin homework (of course)
9. emotional pain
10. feelings of wanting to do something but can't
11. line cutters
12. hearing about death (I have heard of to many people dieing now, so I don't care anymore, its annoying now)
13. heart breakers
14. Highly aggressive people
15. people that sound like they just don't care

I think these are the only things keeping me from going insane:
1. Anna
2. Kaitlyn
3. Tarah
4. Hugs
5. Kisses
6. All love in general
7. Telling people anything, knowing I won't be called stupid or something crying
8. Reggae or easy going/relaxing music
9. everyone in The Laundry Mat
10. the thought of only just 1 1/2 years of school left
11. the hope of me seeing Anna someday heart
12. Soda <3
13. My hair
14. Fun talks/IM conversations
15. Video Games!
16. TV
17. My imagination
18. Watching little kids enjoy their youth ^^ <3
19. My kittens who I consider my children in this day of age <3 I love you Coby and Terra <33
20. The beleif that there are still nice people in this world.
21. the thought of all the bad people I know are going to hell someday (yes I am religious) mrgreen heart

Thats all, For those whom don't know I love my Friends alot more than my family.

and I love Anna Alot wink heart