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Hey all of my homies. What's up. It's been a interesting half a month for me. Between school & my parents & such. I can barely catch my breath. But I wanna talk about something in particular today.
My fellow female readers, did your father ever treat you like a princess? If so, kudos to him & I hope he continues till the days he dies. If not, I feel your pain. You see, I realized the reason why I treat males like crap. I was never really treated like princess. Now I don't mean the preppy type of princesses you see walking down school halls, but the type where you felt like the most beautiful girl alive. Now i'm not going to get into details about my private life, but in a nutshell, my father is no longer my father, but the monster of addiction. He was always gone doing work (he works in the oilfileds) & drinking in a bar somewhere. Now my father has never touched me inapropriatly or anything like that, but he has to make a conscious effort to be sober around my birthday.
I never really trusted him & i'm always waiting for him to freak out on me. Now I know my father loves me, but I never really feel it...I can't really describe it. So for my whole, short life, I've been somewhat a feminist or sexist, whatever you wanna call it, towards men. For the longest time I though the only men I could have in my life were my father & my brother. Now my father is out & my brother (just a young teenager tho xd ) currently has one emotion. So now I treat most males in my life like dirt & I feel really bad for it. some worse than others.
So to get to a point here, all you males out there & whoever reads this...treat your future daughters like princesses. They need a male figure in their life. they'll thank you for it. Trust me.
Thank you all for listening to my rant. I feel much better now. smile
Luv, Jessica heart