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Broken

I wanna tell you,
I love you,
But won’t,
Want to know why?
Or do you just not care,
Like it always seems now,
Don’t tell me that’s a lie,
Because if it was,
Why do we fight?
It may not seem it to you,
But we do,
More then ever,
And it kills me,
I just wanna sit here and say my heart,
Yet I know it wouldn’t matter,
I know you still care for me,
Yet wonder if you ever loved me at all,
I know it’s harsh to say,
But I do wonder,
This isn’t the first time I’ve sat down to think,
And wondered if I should still even think…
That I love you,
My world came crashing down,
So long ago,
Yet I still stand,
I even wonder if I’m meant to stay with someone,
Or to even have a true life,
I’m starting to turn back,
Back into who I was,
A silent,
Lonely person,
And at this time,
Right now,
I want to be that person,
Because that person was never hurt,
I never cried,
I never loved,
If it comes down to it,
I want to be that person again,
So I don’t have to remember,
Having love,
Then losing it,
But until I snap to go back,
I’ll just sit here waiting,
To see what will happen to me,
I only ask you one thing,
Do you really hate being around me,
Or talking to me,
Because you miss me?
Or because you just don’t like me?
~DL~