It finaly happend..I failed
and even when I was given a second chance i still failed....
he believed in me and I couldn't even believen in my self...
a blur of furry objects passed me..as I stood there panting
watching them fly pass me
The first time it didn't hurt..I had someone there...then a year passed and there was no one...
to comfort me...
Who could really understand me?
who could really understand anyone?
We are all alone in this world, with people who cant even imagine what we feel
As some the cold dead gutted feeling that brings us feeling a drag
others the sad feeling of heart break...
It's easy to fail at things you hate but it's even harder to fail at things you love...
he made me love it..the one thing I had always hatted..
He made me love it..
even the first day I had ever met him..I just already knew him...like family
I can never smile again...
something I tried so hard to do...and set my mind to failed...
I Failed
I lost myself..again...willing to turn to anything but..it's hard
to find comfort...
staying in the puddle is wrong when your person..
is there standing over you with a towel..
My person is the only one that can really understand...
But the shame...
it ingulfs me with the darkness...
and I can no longer see the light or he...I'm shamed
by myself and who I am
stupid people and this society
with all their brand names...
and stores who only sell clothes to thoes...
whom are the size negitive one or lower in size
can you really ever see yourself with out the fat?
Even I have become one of them judging and insulting
Why?
What for?
I doens't help me
..
it just makes it worse for me..
keeping the anger..
one another thing I shall always want....
...the one thing...
but I can't..because of me...
sometimes i wish it would all end
and then everyone whould be happy..
but they would
cry
if i never were here in the first place...
they would cry...
but we don't cry for the people we have forgoten...
.........
and we never will
and even when I was given a second chance i still failed....
he believed in me and I couldn't even believen in my self...
a blur of furry objects passed me..as I stood there panting
watching them fly pass me
The first time it didn't hurt..I had someone there...then a year passed and there was no one...
to comfort me...
Who could really understand me?
who could really understand anyone?
We are all alone in this world, with people who cant even imagine what we feel
As some the cold dead gutted feeling that brings us feeling a drag
others the sad feeling of heart break...
It's easy to fail at things you hate but it's even harder to fail at things you love...
he made me love it..the one thing I had always hatted..
He made me love it..
even the first day I had ever met him..I just already knew him...like family
I can never smile again...
something I tried so hard to do...and set my mind to failed...
I Failed
I lost myself..again...willing to turn to anything but..it's hard
to find comfort...
staying in the puddle is wrong when your person..
is there standing over you with a towel..
My person is the only one that can really understand...
But the shame...
it ingulfs me with the darkness...
and I can no longer see the light or he...I'm shamed
by myself and who I am
stupid people and this society
with all their brand names...
and stores who only sell clothes to thoes...
whom are the size negitive one or lower in size
can you really ever see yourself with out the fat?
Even I have become one of them judging and insulting
Why?
What for?
I doens't help me
..
it just makes it worse for me..
keeping the anger..
one another thing I shall always want....
...the one thing...
but I can't..because of me...
sometimes i wish it would all end
and then everyone whould be happy..
but they would
cry
if i never were here in the first place...
they would cry...
but we don't cry for the people we have forgoten...
.........
and we never will
