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Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be totally invisble. Sometimes i wonder what it would be like for everyone to know who I am. And, sometimes when Im in a totally romantic mood, I wonder what it would be like, to be in a crowd of people and seem to fit in(be invisble) yet one person sees me and only me. He would think Im the most beautiful thing in the world. Pushing through the crowd he hoped that he would not to lose sight of me. Finally, just before i board a bus, He'd stop me, and take me in his wonderfully warm arms and tell me he loves me.

Wishful thinking. For one, I doubt one guy in real life would actually think that about me.Two, I doubt in real life a guy would even noticed me. But love and romance arent even my troubles. Rich snobbish brats who have everything make love and romance troubles. For me, Just getting through Highschool...without killing myself, will be hard. And, just being able to continue spewing out random thought that no one reads might soon become troublesome.

But Ill keep my head up and try not to let my troubles drag me down. I dont want to be some depressed emo kid. Heh...funny thing is.. i get accused of alot of things at my sometimes it does hurt. Just like one of my favorite sayings go:Sticks and Stones might break my bones, but words can shatter the soul. So I may get down occasionlly or frequently but I promise myself and my friends,my true friends, that I wont let these troubles and problems drag me down. Of course i may just be lying to my self...wanting to seem strong when all i really am is a pathectic and weak person.

I fear I may bore you to sleep with my excessive chatter about nonsense. Good-day to you all...and

GOD BLESS AMERICA!