I just got back from my second behind the wheel experience with my mother... I was doing so well, turning, shinfting, braking, all correctly and with relative ease. So Mom's like "since there isnt any traffic on the little road next to the school, you can try to go from this parking lot to the other one." A simple task, really, since there was about 50 yards of simple straight road between the two lots. So I decided to try it - I turned out onto the road, and started moving forward. I was straddling the yellow line with my car, so I thought "I'm gonna try to get into the correct lane. I guess I over steered or something, cause the next thing I knew, I had scraped the right side of the front of the car against a pole - the breaks didnt even help whatsoever when I tried to use them to stop.
So now, I've done about $1000 worth of damage to a car, my oh so fragile confidence is shot, Mom is pissed even though she attempts to be nice about it (she didnt have to say "Im not exactly thrilled about this either" when I was sulking - that just made me feel even worse about the whole friggin incident mad )
I feel horrible, and I dont ever wanna get behind the wheel again - but I know I'm gonna have to, which is the worst part. I guess I'll get over this eventually, but I'm just so angry... I should have been able to handle such a simple thing... but I couldn't... mad I can tell that this is gonna be one of those things that will bug me for the rest of my life, like all those other damn stupid things that I just cant seem to get over... giving me that horrible gut feeling and self anger when I think of them. mad
Why am I such a screw up? I try so hard... but I just cant seem to do anything right...
 Sutiiven · Sun Aug 06, 2006 @ 10:39pm · 0 Comments |
