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I have never been so mad in my life.

When I was playing my PS2 eariler today, I saw my mother typing an email back to my brother.

Well, at first, she had me look at her email with her permission.

When I read the email RJ (my brother) sent, I could not have been more pissed off. He believed he was once again getting ******** over again.

I didn't read the rest of it, but I knew what he was getting at.

Anyway, like I was saying, when I was pitting down, playing my PS2, ma was sending an email back to RJ when I noticed she was crying.

Anyone with a brain could've known what was going on if you saw your mother cry.

And to be honest, I don't even know if I can call RJ my brother after all the hateful things he's said. After all the things ma tried to do for us all, he's become the most selfish son-of-a-b***h I have ever seen. This double-crossing backstabbing son of a b***h has railroaded not only me, but also our mother as well.

He's become self-centered, egotistical, mean, selfish... any other word you could think of.

Ma has taught me and my brother so much over the course of our lives and he does this to her? I hope he's happy.

RJ, who called her on Mother's Day, huh?! ME!

Who was there when she had a ******** asthma attack? Me.
Who was there with open arms and fully understood the situation? Me.
Who understood that there was no way we could keep a house over our heads and food in our ******** stomachs?! Me.
Who had at least the ******** gumption to get himself a job so he could at least make something fo himself? Me.
Who; under all the pressure of failing, managed to go along with his mother's decision, even though we'd start off slow then build on from there? Me.
Who stayed in his education and graduated? Me. And to be honest, I went to school longer than most people would ever do in their lives and by God; it paid off big time!

RJ, of all the people I've ever despised, you're now slowly creeping to the top of the list. The only reason I said slowly is because you're family.

RJ, in case if you haven't noticed, we are the sons of one Ronald Joesph Studley, Sr.

So what if he was a drunk?
So what if he was a crack, smack and dope addict?
So what if he was or wasn't anything?!

The fact of the matter is this...

HE IS AND WILL FOREVER BE OUR FATHER!!!

And in case if you've also forgotten, RJ...

Annette Yvette Guyer will always and will forever will be our mother; right or wrong, good or bad, we are of both the same blood.

Remember that one Seuss poem about Thing Two and Thing One?

You and I did everything, everything under the sun, RJ.

You and I are basically two sides of a coin. Some would dare to call us twins. And then I'm reminded of that line from Vergil from Devil May Cry 3.

"Twins... Right..."

And now you've gone and did this...? To us??? What for? To punish her?

Well, RJ, good ******** job, you goddamn asshat. You've made a grown woman cry.

Actually, lemme reiterate. You've made a 51 year old woman cry her heart out, you ignoramus. You've broke her heart all because you wanna sit on your a** and expect money to fall from the sky, you greedy piece of s**t. Real cosher of you.

I hope you know one thing. When she's dead and gone, YOU are responsible for YOURSELF.

And I have no brother...