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I went to my cousins graduation yesterday biggrin it was so crowded and so loud crying i saw her walk across she had so many cords whee i was so proud of her. i wish i could have expressed it i was the only person in the entire stadium wearing a mask emo some people pretended to cough around me it was very uncomfortable and overwhelming cry but i was glad i was there to see it i wasn't able to take many pictures but I did get to hug her and wish her off. i didn't really get to take pictures her other family was very..... they just looked at me like a germ and I didn't want to be in anyone's way. I tried to stay out the pictures but its okay its her day and that's the only thing that mattered. I know they didnt want to invite me they were hoping my great grandmother would come instead or had a change of heart. It was just me and my grandmother to support I wish we had more to give that day. i thought if we just showed up thing would just you fit into place. but its clear you can't fix yourself into places your not wanted or avoided or completely ignored you simply do the best you can and make the day possible and be present even if nobody wanted you to come. Be grateful and proud regardless because as much as she is thier family shes ours too. And we love her im so proud of you sweety and i just want you to be yourself be happy and know we are here and sorry for everything you went through you definitely deserve a better grandfather then the one from our side and i wish the rest of the family could have seen you shine. With love always