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Whee, first journal entry. I wasn't planning on even touching my journal, but I just gotta rant about this s**t or I'll explode.
This is the worst xmas I've ever had.

Let's start from the beginning. The plans were to go to my mother in law's place today. I never really had a say in this, but ******** it. I like my mother in law, I don't mind her fiancee. Then we find out she's inviting a few of her clients. She works with the... hm. What's the nice way to say retards? Ah, ******** it. She works with retards. Now, I have pretty bad anxiety, wasn't exactly happy with the idea of spending xmas with people I don't know, especially with their conditions, I really don't know how to act around them. But, I still had no choice in the matter. So we go over there, there's already someone there we weren't informed was gonna be there, some kid I don't know, but he was a cool kid so it was fine. We open presents, everything is fine. Mother in law goes and gets her clients, we have to stop watching mad tv because they might get worked up, I stare at the wall and try to go into a happy place. Then some more people come over. What the hell? She never said anything about this? Starting to feel very uncomfortable. But what can I do. So I just kinda.. sit there and try to at least not be totally miserable. Then 10 minutes later a shitload more people show up. The house is completely filled with people I have never seen before in my life, and it's xmas, and my anxiety is acting up, and I can't even go into another room and relax, so I was starting to get just a tad pissed right off. We would have flat out refused to go over there if she had told us there was gonna be this many people. Apparently her fiancee decided to invite over his entire extended family. No joke. So, hubby can see how miserable I am, says I'm feeling sick to my stomach, and we leave. Thank ******** god.

Then when we get home, we discover that one of our water pipes has burst, had to shut off our water. The house is very messy, so we MUST clean tomorrow so we can get the landlord over here to fix it. Would have to spend the entire day just cleaning.

Did I mention tomorrow is my birthday?

But, on a good note, hubby could see I was considerably upset and promised he'd do the cleaning. heart

Thus ends my rant for today. Now I'm going to drink until I puke. Good day.