Im still a little "Moody" I think to much when Im moody, the future being alone knowing that in the nearly 20 years Ive been out of High School ( 12th Grade ) I have not really talked to school mates more than 30/ 40 times total an not recently talked to any in the last 2 or 3 years ( If you dont count my Ex-Girlfriend who was a year or two behind me in High School. )
I wasnt even remembered by anyone to be invited to our 10th School Reunion in 2012....not one person remembered and I LIVE HERE STILL.
I think to much about how easy it would be, it would be so easy..I go into work an drink a bottle of gun cleaning solvent or play chicken with a 18 wheeler. I dont even have to try..I just have to stop taking my lung meds for maybe a week if I can do it by the end of the week Ill go to sleep an have such low Oxygen % Ill suffocate due to oxygen hypoxia ( Not enough Oxygen an to much O2 Carbon Monoxide in my blood. )
There are any number of ways I could, But I wont Im a coward...I wanna see my Sister so bad I cant if I kill myself.
