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DX I miss my scanner. I miss the schools computers that had PhotoshopCS. I miss being able to borrow a tablet from the Cage. I miss my friends. I miss my dorm room. I miss anime club. I miss being called honey and sugar. DX I miss college.


On a side note, saw Cars tonight and it only makes me want to work for Pixar that much more. Still need to work on my skills though. Not nearly good enough. And I'm having trouble. I'm beginning to doubt my choice of major. I don't know if my style is cut out for comics... I've been thinking about illustration, maybe even animation. I just don't know anymore. Going to school and going to classes only confused me even more - seeing what other people were doing in those other majors, I just want to do it all! But I don't want to spend a hundred years in school and double majoring seems so daunting - even minoring would involve summer courses or another year in college and I'm just going... "********."
I don't know what to do with myself and I haven't got much to fall back on. I can't really ask my family either because only my mother has ever gone on to college. It's kind of cool being the second in both my mothers and fathers entire family to go to college...let alone finish highschool on time - but it sucks too because I can't rely on advice from more than one view point and let's just say my mother is a lot different than I am.
All of my grandparents never finished highschool. My father got his GED when he was 40and my mom was a year older than me when she went to Uni. I'm just feeling... kinda depressed right now. I feel as if I should already know what I'm gonna do - but the fact that people expect me, the school expects me to know what I want to do with the rest of my life when I'm only 18 is ridiculous. I want to do comics, I want to illustrate childrens books and anything else I can get my hands on, and I want to animate or at least be involved in the process. But I don't know if I could be good at any one of those, let alone all of them. I'm just feeling lost right now and it's really pissing me off.

On another side note - I was able to convince my mother to take me to the Cosmic Monkey and got me some new Runaways. I had up to 11... unforunately they only had 13 and up so I'm missing an issue, but it's all good. I still got to read five new comics from the series that I adore. And I'll definately be bringing them to Savannah so all y'all down there can read them too when school starts again.