Mood: Iia's Sad. T__T
Listening To: "The Last Song" - The All-American Rejects.
Listening To: "The Last Song" - The All-American Rejects.
Sorry for the emo-ness of this journal, but I just have to get this off my chest.
It's like my parent's think I'm stupid. Dain too. When mom had moved back in, I swear to God that the happy family environment was the fakest load of crap ever. NOTHING has changed. They still argue, b***h, and complain about each other. Then they tell ME about it, like they want me on their side or something. Then they argue, "forgive and forget" and go all lovey-dovey.
SPARE ME.
Noone's EVER forgotten or forgiven ANYBODY. Dad's always sayin "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." IF YOU'RE SO ******** SORRY, STOP SCREWING UP.
Dad, Mom is NOT having relationships with people on the computer. STOP stalking her. If you weren't so paranoid about it, she wouldn't be so annoyed. You MARRIED her, so TRUST her.
Mom, STOP FORGIVING HIM. All we ever talk about now is how he's a control freak about you being on the computer. Instead of kissing his a** so he doesn't complain, why don't you speak your mind? Tell HIM all of your problems with him. He can't read your mind.
I'm just WAITING for mom to leave again. Which sucks, because I HATE choosing who to go live with. I WANT to live with mom, assuming they would split again, but I WANT to stay home with my own room. I just...UGH. I can't STAND just waiting for it to happen.
This is NEVER gonna be the normal family that it WAS. It's just...not.
All I can do is just do whatever they say and agree to whatever they say. I'm not STUPID, I can hear them fight, and I KNOW that they're just acting like the fight's all over.
It hurts, you know? I'm sick of crying over it.
And you know what...I'm NOT looking forward to Houston. With the way this family has been going, I don't even wanna go.
They wonder why I'm locked inside my room 24/7...it's because I don't wanna go out there and jump into the middle of their fights. I wanna stay out of it. They can deal with their own problems.
Again, sorry for such a horribly emo entry, but I REALLY can't take it anymore.
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I'm sorry to hear about what's going on. If it makes you feel any better, my family's pretty similar in some ways.
Ya know that if you want to talk to me about anything, and I mean ANYTHING, that I'm just a PM or MSN IM away, and I'll be there to listen, try to help, or just be your venting wall; whatever you need.
I love you, Iia, and I do wish that I knew what to say to make you feel better or give you hope..
To quote you quoting me in an earlier entry of mine: "Anything is possible. Keep faith."
Be strong, Iia. heart