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I have the temptations everyday to try to chop off the finger, to slit the throat or to stab the knife through my chest which pounds with a racing heart... In September (2005) I brang a knife to my chest, couldn't do... I thought about who made me feel this bad. I brang a pocket knife to school, hid it in my front pocket, went up to the girl, and then all of a sudden so many thoughts went through my head, How will I live with myself if I do this? {I kept on asking myself} I looked up at the girl and just said hi, I walked pass her she turned around and called me a "f*cking B*tch." I went to my locker and found death notes in my locker which she and friends {who critisize me}stuffed in, that said what I was, what my future was, and when it was going to end, I shut my locker and looked to my left, the girl was standing there. I went home after that, I didn't say anything. My friends phoned me that night, just before I hung myself, that next Saturday I went to my friends house we talked about al my attemps, they had given me the courage to change, but today even I still think...................
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