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I work a okay, moderatly stressful job ( That stress varies day to day and depending on many factors. ) it pays not that great but I get along well with co-workers and can feel accomplished with my efforts at doing my job now and then.

I have a fairly high tolerance for pain and if I try I can "push" myself through a lot of pain and such. It takes a lot to make me fully stop and do nothing in reguards to normal life.

I have worked through things many would not have, I have endured much too in my life.

Can you imagine working without sleep for just over a week and 3 days? Ive done that.

Can you imagine removing toe nail by hand with a twiser? Ive done that too many times.

Can you imagine trying to poison yourself? ....

I cant say all of it but sufferthe thought that everyday I push "My Mind" to NOT think of anything or to "zone out" where I can function and not think at all.

I think of anything but what is on normally on my mind, I think of stories constantly I dream and sleep to escape life. The only way I will likely ever travel to any place is in my dreams while I sleep...