I am so so so crushingly sad today, which is piling on top of anxiety. I'm feeling so frustrated and ******** up about my gender. Dysphoria. Dysmorphia. I want to be alone. I had a nightmare.
I could cry and throw up. I can't though, because I still have some ******** up mental blockage from being abused. I just want.... I... I don't know. I want to turn my brain off. I'm trying really hard not to drink right now because I know where that takes me.
******** ******** ********. I want to be okay.
I want to come out but I'm terrified. ********.
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