I want to stop streaming.
It was my dream to stream, but it wasn't in me to keep going. It became a joint effort between me and her to continue it. Motivated by having her with me each night and... It just felt right. But that was usually what she did; Make things feel right.
Now that I'm alone due to my arrogance, I self-loathe streaming. Can't stand the dark thought that I'm just streaming in hopes she's watching so she could somehow miss me and want to talk to me again...
So, I decided I'll be ending my streaming career for now. That I'll start spending the next couple of months on self-reflection and self-improvement. I have no idea what any of this s**t actually means other than studying up on coding and finally finishing my A+ while getting my driver's license and working out... But I guess I'll just figure s**t out on the way there.
