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Ok this is just getting way more than I want to handel! scream Let me just get this out, I am not suicidal I may have self loathing but I'm to much of a p***y s**t to put myself through physical pain. When it comes to cutting and s**t like that I do it all mentally. I mentally and verbally abuse myself becuase I'm a fat ******** who only attracts, drugies, psyco paths, rapists and the most creepy ******** guys you will ever meet!
I hate it I see all my friends getting boyfriends and girlfriends and it makes me so depressed. I'm so so so so so ******** sick of high school all the drama all the "he said she said" bullshit that just makes me want to ******** rip someone's throat out. I can't stand it I honestly at this point in time want to die. I want to lay down on train tracks somewhre and just die...I'm just so ******** sick of being here that it makes me sick to my stomach. My head has been throbbing cause all this has been flying around in there.
The point is, some people can take self loathing to an extreme level well at this point in time I have gone far beyond that. Sorry, and don't say sorry either there's no reason to be I'm not your issue I'm mine. Wether I want to be or not.
Quote of the day:
The things have come back to get me in the dark
But I no longer care
They watch me with greedy eyes
And take the life from me
I really can't feel
So ******** you for trying to get through
Cause I don't want your help
I don't even want mine
When you try to sleep at night
And only can cry
You think to yourself
I'm a worthless little ********
I shouldn't be here
No one needs me I give up
Theses thoughts reside in my head
And I just don't care
It's appathy to the next level
I don't love me
So let's just drop it
DiMe_StOrE_wHoRe
 DiMe_StOrE_wHoRe · Wed May 31, 2006 @ 10:16pm · 2 Comments |
