already i know i'm drinking today. i can almost taste it. the thought of booze has been on my mind all week. i can't shake this demon. or maybe i'm the demon and i've caught the scent of my prey. some people end up living on skid row. none of these people had that as a goal but other things started to take more importance in their lives. my life. sex and drugs and rock'n'roll. in my life it's more booze, sex, juggling, magic and music. i digress. slowly over time. i digress and devolve into something less chaotic. stillness is harmony. silence, peace. i know that it'll all end soon and it frightens me. the pain frightens me and the horror. the unknown isn't the part that frightens me. just as life was unknown before we lived so too will death be unknown before we die. that is not the thing to fear. all will die just as all have lived and that is a beautiful gift not to be squandered. the pain that's the shitty part. again, digression.
what's it going to be then? beer? rum for my flask? there is alcohol in your near future. alcoholism is not as fun as it's cracked up to be. trust me. it's pretty sad actually. you lose your freedom. you lose.
cijai saw the mouse scurry across the floor today. he's too smart for my trap. or i'm not smart enough to capture him. this may not be a bad thing. not that i want to harm the little fellah. i just want to meet him and then let him go outside. he'll likely get eaten by the two siamese cats next door but at least he will get to experience the fresh, open wonder of nature before he gets devoured and helps to further the cycle of life.
make a coin appear. then another and another and another until i'm rich.
a penny saved is...tycooning.
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