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I usually don't open myself up to people. I tend to push people away when they start getting to close, and with him I didn't. I can't begin to describe how happy I am that I didn't close myself off to him. Even though the feeling of vulnerability scares me, I'm happy to be vulnerable if it's with him.

I hope the day does not come where I get scared and freak out. It usually happens and I usually, without meaning to, push people away. I try to push them away before I get overly attached I think. It frightens me knowing that they could leave and it would just obliterate my heart. But, I would like to think that I am smart enough to keep him around and not push him away because he is rather wonderful.

I can't really explain it. Things just feel natural when it comes to him. I don't feel like I have to hide as much as I usually do. I went hiking with him today. And even though I was all gross and sweaty, he didn't seem like he minded. I mean, I minded, because that isn't how I wanted him to see me, but he didn't seem to mind. It's nice to know those kinds of things.

I really enjoy being around him, I really enjoy his company. His kisses, his laugh, his smile, his cuddles, his hugs. I could go on. Really I could. I love being able to play with his hair, knowing that he doesn't mind. I love hearing his heartbeat when we cuddle. Even if he does think its off, I love it. There are so many things that could describe, so many things that I could say about him. He's such a wonderful person and I am slowly becoming dangerously comfortable around him.

I'm happy to open myself up to him, to try things that I haven't done before. I feel comfortable around him and I like that he has been respecting my thoughts. It's hard to find people that respect your feelings. I haven't always been so lucky when it comes to those kinds of things.

"We fall in love with personality, the words they say and their behavior, the thoughts and opinions, the moments you make and remember we lust with our eyes and love with our hearts. I would say it is completely possible to fall in love with someone without having a physical contact because it is a pure, raw love for them, who they are and what they're about. Perhaps it's the best way to fall in love." -unknown