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I'm wanting to find my prince charming already. I want to be happy and feel the love that I know will be in my heart. I want to find the one guy that makes me realize why it never would have worked with anyone else. To find one guy that won't walk away. That won't leave. I want to find the one guy that would be willing to do anything for me, like I would do for him. One guy to show me that being vulnerable doesn't have to be a bad thing. To go on silly little dates and fall in love.

I want to find my one true love. I want to argue and fight and know that even then, we will always get through it. Love will not work without fights. But I want a love worth fighting for. I want someone who is going to look at me, even when I'm at my worst, and smile. Someone who will accept me and not try and change me. I need someone that will put in effort with me. Someone who will fight for me and make me feel wanted. I want to find someone that will love me forever.

I crave a love that doesn't fade. I want to be eighty and even more in love than the first time I met him. I want to love without a doubt. I want to make someone smile. On cold days I want to cuddle and watch movies, even if they are Disney movies. I want to make him dinner and his favorite treat at random. I want to hear about their day and just talk for hours. I want to be able to be doing two completely different things, but be completely happy because he's right next to me.

I just want to make someone happy and be able to make him feel loved. I want to make him smile even if he's at his breaking point. I want to be able to show him that he matters. That he will always matter. I want to give him little gifts to show how much I appriciate him. I want to look into his eyes and, without saying one word, let him see how much he's loved.

I know that it's a lot of demands. And sometimes I wonder if they are too much. Or maybe it's the fact that I get really attatched. I fall for people way too fast. Then they usually find out I'm not all that special. Then they leave and my heart that was about to the top of the dark hole it fell into falls. It falls all the way to the bottom and shatters again. But, I'm a strong girl. And the peices get pulled together. And that broken heart is proven stronger than ever.

One day, I will find my prince charming. I have no doubt in my mind that I will. He won't leave. Instead, he'll be there when my heart finally emerges from that dark hole. And we will be happy. Joy and love will fill the air and we'll live happily ever after. So, yes. One day my prince will come forward. I'm just hoping that day is soon. I'm ready to fall in love and be truly happy. I'm ready.