Well well! To those who don't know, that title is a quote from American Pie! yum_pie I'm not really even sure how to start this, but let's give it a go.
Okay, so the thing is, there's this one girl I like. Let's call her... C. I met her at university this year, and she's great! I think she's a lot like me, only taller. Yes, I know. She's taller than me, it's so heartbreaking! emotion_facepalm Not really though, I don't think she minds..?
Well, we hang out a lot, and I love spending my time with her. Countless times I've thought about asking her out, but ya know.. insecurities, imperfections, confidence (or lack thereof!)... something always stopped me. I guess I thought it wouldn't be fair to put that kind of question on her. What if she says no? Awkward confrontations much?
But no more.
There's two weeks left of college this year. Two weeks! Then a week off, and then the dreaded exams. Im'ma phail! classified_diedrich After that, we're home free for Summer! So before all that happens, I wanna ask her out. I may not even see her much over the Summer considering she lives some two counties away from me. But we'll be close next year when college starts again.
Two weeks ago I realized that I liked her more than the average person. I knew, because I was hurt to find that she's actually going out with another guy we know at college. They got together some 2 days before I found out, and I was hurt. I wonder why she didn't tell me..?
Anyway, I'm guessing they're over now, like I thought would happen. See, C has burns on her body, and I'm guessing when this douchebag (let's call him K) found out, he must've... not liked her anymore. She texted me a few days ago wanting to talk, telling me she's been depressed and hates seeing herself in the mirror. Yup, definitely a physical fault. God damn it, K. You don't treat women like that, specially not her. She.. well, she deserves better.
Honestly, I don't like the idea that I'll be second option but.. somehow I know I still like her. I.. want to be with her. Which is surprising, cos I never know what I want.
Well, tomorrow I'll be leaving good old Dublin and heading back to Kilkenny until Wednesday evening. I may or may not post again soon, but I'm sure I'd like to. One thing I learned from writing for the university newspaper though, is that there's a massive difference between having something to say, and having to say something. BOOM.
Ha, well, wish me luck, I suppose (:
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