...Only a matter of days into the new year, and all I can think of is you.
It's been a year now. A whole year. You once told me to come back after a year and see if we could at least salvage something...Was that true?
I pray ever so hard each and every day that it is, but I suppose that's up to you isn't it?
Judging by your attitude toward me lately, it doesn't seem likely...It seems I will be condemned to die alone in this cold, miserable winter.
I simply don't know what to do with myself anymore. I can't keep living like this. Can this really be called living? My heart may be beating, but my soul died long ago.
I hope, I pray that you might read this someday and find it in your heart for something, perhaps even the forgiveness I have longed for all this time. Perhaps we might be together again...Who knows?
All I know is that I can't take much more of this. I love you. I long for your embrace once more.
I only wish I could hear the same from you...Just one more time.
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A recollection of a life once lived
Just random babblings of myself, who I am, who I once was, where I came from and how exactly I came to be where I am today.
"You don't realize what you have lost, yet. You may never realize it, as that requires depth of some degree. But it was your decision of betrayal that led us here. I am wholly justified to rebuke you. Who knows? Maybe one day you might wake up and think of this. You might remember your decision at the most unexpected time. You might actually regret your decision. And when that point comes, it will be too late. But that is not my burden to shoulder.
You're gonna carry that weight."
You're gonna carry that weight."