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Im just your problem...

1/3/2014 , 9:23 a.m.

Spent the whole morning collecting a peace of thought. So irritated with so much. All of it is so stressful. (What's so stressful?) ...Everyone.

I'm so tired of everyone expecting s**t out of me! Don't expect me to be or act a certain way when I'm not feeling too great. (********!) That just makes me want togo balistic. I'm not the only one who has problems and should go talk to a damn therapist! I want to yell at everyone and tell them that its not just me who has problems! Everyone else around me has them too! They're quite visible!

But s**t; instead of acting like I'm in a perfect world and being oblivious to s**t, I admit that I have issues. I'm 15 and have gone through hell and back! Years after years of complete bull s**t. Does it look like I want anymore bullshit? No! And yet Istill get more of it thrown at me.

I admit when I was younger, Iuse to lie in order to get people to like me. I'm past that s**t now. I'm growing the ******** up, opening my eyes, and realizing more and more s**t. I may be gentle to some people, but I notice their flaws right off the bat. I've seen so much of it. I mostly realize the more I'm real to myself and others around me; I picl up more real friends. Like my friend "James". He's honestly the realist person I had ever met in my life. I appreciate him because he doesn't give, show, or take bullshit.

I hate when people ask me to go talk to a therapist. ... I want them to know how I feel when I hear it on a daily basis. Its like another way to say, "Hey, you got issues." . Its not an okay feeling. My aunt, sisters, family, ...even my girlfriend.

What if I don't want to talk to a therapist? Am I then considered crazy? Someone tell me. I hate when people do that to me. Then they want to talk to me as if they understand. No one can possibly understand me unless they've been through the same s**t like me. Or at least highly similar. (Just quit telling me s**t I already know!) ... I'm human like everyone else.

I'm just like everyone else. So don't torture me with your bitter words, then try to be sad about it later. ... and then don't assume that I'm hurt. There are only two people in this world who could hurt me multiple times. ...Can't stress about it.

Anyway. No dreams today. ...I'm not mad.