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Different things inspire me at different times. I don't say things for the fear that no one will listen. It's this fear that has lead me to hide what I've been put through as a child, and young teen. I couldn't tell anyone about the things my mom did, because she would deny them, and end up thinking that I was just making stuff up. I couldn't speak a word of what happened because she made it seem horrible to have to be taken away from her to live with my father and at the time wife Sheri. But now I see that that would have been a blessing compared to all that she has put me through. I am sorry that I didn't say anything about it to anyone... but how was I supposed to say, "Oh btw, my mom got mad at me for figuring out she was cheating on her bf, and took her anger out on me by hitting me multiple times, grounding me, and making my life miserable as much as she could for the next month." That's not something you bring up in a normal conversation... Besides, even if I did want to talk about it, my mom wouldn't have allowed it because when I tried to get my dad to let me move up in Oregon with him, my mom was standing right there so I couldn't mention that she had hit me... I couldn't admit anything... I had to keep my mouth shut and pretend for the next 6-7 years that I was happy and that I was fine...