Ugh. I can't even. =////= A few hours ago, when I was waiting for my crush to go online, I was planning not to talk to him. Or if ever he was the one who chatted me first, I wouldn't make an effort to make the conversation going. Not because I don't want to talk to him anymore. I just didn't want to get attached too much. I mean, I was waiting for him atleast half a day. o-o Err. Not exactly waiting for him. But I didn't exit my gaia tab even though I'm not doing anything. I was hoping he'd be on <w< And to think that we've only been talking to eachother for two days >w> Overly attached friend @w@
When I got home, he was online. And he did chat me first. Ofcourse, I only answered his questions, and as I planned earlier, won't make an effort in keeping the conversation going.
But then he's suddenly so.. sweet o-o I mean, he's always sweet, but still. Ugh I don't know. =/////= Damnit. My heart is acting so weird. I hate it =///////= Arrrgh. This is frustrating.
And when I was in the house of my dad's friend, (we visited because her mother died), I had no one to talk to. So instead I started imagining. Like what would happen if we were so close, that he takes my number, then he would text me. And while I'm studying in my room, would suddenly call. And how I'd react.
Or.. Or like what if he asks me to meet up with him, and that I'd bring my friends along with me coz I'm afraid to go alone, and then the atmosphere would be so awkward coz I'm shy. And that my friends would be there in the corner grinning at us, and how much I'll try to hide my smile. But ofcourse I won't meet up with him <w< never.
Ugh. s**t. =////= Kinikilig ako tae.
I HATE THIS FEELING Dx
