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I would totally give you guys a cute greeting on how much I love you and all but I'm so upset I can't.
I am a strong believer that no one can be perfect except our lord. So I don't understand why I try so hard to be perfect. My friend said it's because I'm Asian and I'm pushed to the max to excel in everything I do and I agree but you have no idea how much I HATE it. I hate the feeling when something doesn't go the way you want it too. I HATE that feeling. Like it burns. I feel my stomach bubble, my brain hurts, my muscles tense and I throw a tantrum. Not only that I cry and I cry gallons of mother f-ing water. And when this happens I get so frikkin suicidal. My brain thinks the only way to solve this problem is to kill myself.
I'm so pissed at myself right now. What pisses me off even more is the first thing I did was right but second guessing myself I was wrong and FML.
Damn it all. ******** kill me.
To upset to sign my freakin name.
Bye