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So last night, a few hours after I wrote the previous entry, I got THE worst growing pain ever. My legs started feeling sore after volleyball practice, but I ignored it. cool

So I got on the train, got off the train, got on a bus, and fell asleep. Now, I don't know if you know, but I have an undiagnosed case of insomnia. Is that something your supposed to check with your doctor? Or is it like, you just know? confused

Point is, I can't sleep. I get about 4-7 hours of sleep on nights (or mornings since it's usually after midnight) every school day. Friday to Saturday, I sleep in till about 10:00am to 1:00pm. I'm fortunate that I can at least kind of refresh my body. xp

Anyways, since I can't sleep as much as I want and need too, I'm often tired. In school, being surrounded by the homely environment I attend for majority of my life, it's pretty easy to stay awake. I mean, in saying that, I don't mean I'm always alert at school, but rather not sleeping.

Yes, if you're wondering, I have slept in class before. A few times during elementary when the teachers would let you sleep until the bell wakes you up (oh God, bless those teachers! whee ) and a few times in junior high. But for a while now, I've mastered sleeping while sitting. No one notices, usually, until they ask you a question and you don't respond.

'Kay well, I haven't mastered it. I just balance myself, and sleep. If someone were to push me, even a little, chances are I'll topple over. blaugh

It's embarrassing, yes, but my friends are awesome, so it's not even a big deal.

Thanks, friends. 4laugh *said in whatever cliche friendly voice you can make*

Back to the story.. So I fell asleep on the bus, a regular thing nowadays. I woke up, and I was like, "shiznits. I missed my stop..?" Lately, I have been missing my stop due to sleep. Sometimes I'd wake up and get off early enough to walk back, and other times, I would take a loop around the bus route (on the bus of course) and end up at my stop again.

I swear, buses are heavenly napping places. I don't know why, but they're just so magical, you know?

Turns out, I didn't miss my stop. It was just that, I woke up too early. I saw things that I normally wouldn't see since I would normally be sleeping when the bus passed through the stuff. I end up at my bus stop, say thanks to the driver, and begin my walk home.

It's about, I'd say, two blocks away? It seems the distance changes every time I walk through it. Creepy stuff, I tell you.

As soon as I get off the bus, this was probably around 5:00pm, or a little later, I notice my legs feeling achy. I thought it was the practice. Maybe it was, maybe it wasn't.

I'll continue writing after my shower. brb.



*queue elevator music*



Okeedokes. Back.

So where was I in my story? Right, getting off the bus. Oh wait, I passed this. Okay, so I arrived home eventually, and do my daily stuff.

I mean, most people would call them chores, but I call them obligations. I feel bad for parents who's kids don't do anything. I mean, come on. They probably had a tough childhood, shouldn't we at least try to make their remaining life better?

Well, that's just how I think. rolleyes

At around 10:00pm, my legs started hurting. It was the type of pain that you get after you run a marathon or something. Sore muscle pain, except it was at my joints.

I'll admit, I do crack my joints. Not actually crack them though, I'm referring to how I can make the sound of it, because everyone knows that's just air passing through your joints. I can make the sound over 47 times using different body parts? Impressive? Disturbing? I like it. 3nodding It's something I've been doing since as long as I can remember.

But no, my joints didn't hurt because I cracked them too much.

At midnight, I gave up. It hurt a LOOOOT. So I decided, let's sleep. I don't mean that in a sexual way... I mean like, the "lay down and rest, and dream, and wake up the next morning not feeling refreshed but having no choice but to get up anyways" type of sleep.

I couldn't even do that. Eventually, I started crying.

I'm such a weakling. Tears? Yeah, signs of weakness. Some people would say differently, but I think tears are weakness. Although, sometimes being weak isn't bad. Blessed are those who are meek and mourn, after all.

In my case, I saw my tears as weakness. It came out slowly (the tears, I mean) and before I knew it, my pillow was wet.

I was confused for a few seconds. I don't cry often, so it surprises me every time I do cry.

There I was, lying in bed, when I wiped my face. And I wiped it again. Over and over.

Weird thing was, I couldn't control. I wasn't even originally conscious of it. More and more tears, until I heard a whimper. My own, was it?

So I was in a lot of pain, crying. I couldn't help it. Somehow, I managed to go downstairs, get two packs of ice (Ziploc + Paper inside + Ice cubes inside = Ice pack). Yeaah. I made my way up the stairs, trying to only use my right leg. It was my left leg that hurt. Sorry if I mixed it up previously. I have a mental problem which I may or may not talk about in the future.

I got in bed (DON'T THINK DIRTY NOW..) and balanced the ice packs on my left ankle, and left knee.

I couldn't feel it at first, but it felt soothing once I did feel it. I slept with ice packs.

Anyways, I just remember me crying. I haven't cried uncontrollably due to pain before, so it's a special thing for me. blaugh However, I do not wish to experience that again. burning_eyes

Also, notice the title? Yeah, that's because I was talking about it with people, and EVERYONE who heard me say growing pain thought I said groin pain.

Uhhh, no.

Groin pain? Haven't gotten that yet.. But I'll be sure to tell you if I do!

Heh. Well, I'll be off now.

Bye byes! Thanks to reading! No really, I seriously appreciate it. And goodnight if it's night!





Also, I've noticed a lot of typos in my entries. It's not because I'm stupid (I'm not too bright either..) but because I don't proof read. And when I do proof read, it's AFTER I submit it. By then, I'm just too lazy to go back and edit it, fixing the typos.

So yeah. Bye byes! Until tomorrow! 4laugh