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I want it. I want to leave this place, very badly. But I'm sick of being with the people here. I'm sick of my grandfather, of my mother, of my aunt...People always downtalking me and thinking I'm useless. I want to be on my own.
Especially since I'm sick of having people think I'm an innocent little girl. I'm not.
My soul is tortured; I need something new. Even if I have to lie, cheat, kill, I want that.
To be with my beloved. I don't care-- I don't. Education, knowledge, smarts, though it is important, I'm willing to do the worst to avoid needing it. I'm willing to give it up, as well.

It feels as if life has let me down. Was it really such a weak opponent?
I am as such; Little-known, and tired. I do not want fame, or fortune, or to be agreed with. I want only to love. And whether that be realistic or not, I don't care.

As a person, I am a pleasure-based soul. As a thinker, I am a knowledge-based soul.
However, there is more to life than that. What do I want for myself?
To start. I want to float as something meaningful. As a lover, definitely. But I do not want to work. I want to be cared for.

I sincerely wish the people in my care would stop. I want to be my own.