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You'll be turning 4... i know what its like to grow up without proper parents in your life. i remember waiting for him to call, and hoping to catch one last glace at my mother. maybe someday you'll really get to know my story, i pray i get the chance to make it up to you, we have a lot of catching up to do. i hope you understand why she isnt in your life, and i hope you never forgive her. i remember waiting for her to come and see you, she never came, you deserve better, better than her, better than me. why do you have to suffer from our mistakes, i know you feel like you need to grow up, and you already act like it, its crazy, i just want you to be you, not someone to protect me. i pretend im doing all i can, and i hope you can understand why i hid all of these stories from you. i hope that you understand that i was in love with the idea of her, not the real her, but i made a mistake and a gift was born. yes i know you act like you hate me sometimes, and you feel like its your fault im like this, but it was all my desion. i remember waiting for my mother to come home when i was your age, and she never did come home. i swear to your god that i will never put you through that. sometimes i think that i would be better without you, and the thoughts have been in my head to give you up. not because i hate you, i love you, no, but because i dont want you to look up to someone like me. so im writting this because i feel like i can't tell you this because you would cry, i pray i get the chance to make all of my mistakes up to you. please become your own hero, dont let me be your hero. im sorry for wanting out of your life sometimes. i look back to my childhood sometimes and i just dont want you in anything like that. i am sorry, i swear one day i will make it up to you.
~ your father
 drummerdudeisme · Mon Jun 11, 2012 @ 02:20am · 0 Comments |
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