Yesh even matticus get's depressed and sad, to be honest i have been depressed for the last couple of years but i can usually just keep smileing and shrug it off. But not all the time and thats when i seem like a goth emo intelligent hybrid. (Emo and smart thats impossible!) Anyways i have just had this empty feeling like i'm worthless. All i have to show for my life is a couple hundread pieces of crappy art that very few people have even ever seen. And i keep having great ideas for certain things but i get writers block or the charecter bores me it's just annoying me to no end. Mayb all i'm good at is sitting on my a** and doing nothing at all. *sigh* I don't know anymore i've been suicidal and s**t just wanting to let it all end, it's a permenant solution to any problem i might have, sleep without dreams. It's just starting to sound real good ina dead end life going nowhere real fast. If anything i know this i am sick of a fake smile coming to my lips but i will put up with it if not to make my self bearable to this pathetic world i am on. And maybe i will find out where i lost my will to live all these years ago.
matt the neko Community Member 
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