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I feel less alone here than I did there. I left everything I once called home. I left all my family. I left all my friends, everyone I even barely knew. Yet, here where everyone is a stranger, and everything is so different... I do not feel so alone. I do feel as empty. I realize Im a moocher and a stalker. Why would you have any interest in me? I can't even take care of myself and theres nobody to take care of me. I technically have a job, where if the boss knew the true story of me I'd be fired in an instant and banned from the store. I've lied more recently than I have my entire life. I'm here and I can't go anywhere. I dont want to. I just want somewhere to call home. My heart is so lost. The only place I feel home is in your arms, which is already so crowded. I should have stayed. I was a better friend there... here I pose too much of a threat. Although I'd never intentionally hurt anybody everyone is afraid of me. Not intimidated just afraid. I still look like an 8th grader... I feel like one too. This isn't my world. That wasn't my world. I don't know where I belong... but I know I feel right when I'm with you... and when you leave... I'm so lost...