Ever thought of suicide? You have? No s**t. That's all anyone thinks about anymore. Some people try to lie, but they know that they've thought about it. Jocks, preps, loners, whatever, labels dont matter. A person could be the happiest person in the world, and yet they are probably the likeliest person to kill themselves. It's weird, you know. I mean right now, i have a friend that is just wonderful, and I can already tell that she's thinking about it. That's what sucks. Everyone thinks they're alone in the world, but that's a load of bull. I've thought about suicide, I've thought about running away, I've thought about anything a person can think of. I've even started writing notes, but...It's just... stress you know. Mother's getting on their daughters a**'s about something. Why is it always the mothers getting mad? At least, with all of my friends, they're running from their mother. I'm running from my mother. She doesn't understand. I love her, and that's why i stay alive, because i couldn't leave her alone. My sister's gone. She's living somewhere else. The only other thing that keeps me alive is being able to see my niece and nephew grow up, and praying that one day my sister would be the happiest person in the world and that she'll finally get what she deserves in life.
Mom, this is for you-
I hate you for making me feel this way
I hate keeping secrets
I hate feeling guilty
I hate that you're so suspicious
I hate being distrustful
I hate relying on your feelings
Why can't I just be me for one day?
Not who you want me to be
Not who you think I am
Just me
One day
That's all I ask
 hydrogirl · Wed Dec 01, 2004 @ 05:14am · 0 Comments |
