I wish you could live forever. It breaks my heart. Sometimes you're the only thing that can stop all of the voices, and those horrible thoughts, and all of the bitterness. Just the thought of losing you brings me to shaking sobs. You're my real friend, the one who won't judge. The one I protect. The one I'd do anything for. I wish I could take away all of your pain, and give you my ears so you could hear the sounds of birds chirping, and so you could hear your name. I'd give it all to you. You're so sweet.



You're getting older. Your getting sicker. I've gone from sad to mentally insane. You've gone from energetic to fragile. When you die I don't know what I'll do. I've never loved anything or anyone as much as I love you. I'll lose it. I'll lose it more than I already have. I can't even imagine life without you! I know it sounds insane but I'm being honest. Maybe it's just because I'm crazy, maybe I shouldn't even be here. I'm a threat to myself and others. You're the only thing I can't imagine hurting.



My dad said that when I first saw you as a baby we instantly loved each other. When someone other than my dad or older brother came near me while i was cuddling with you you would stare them down like you didn't trust them with me. When Rie-Rie died you were the only thing that kept me sane. I don't believe in god but you've saved me. You've saved me from myself. I don't know who will save me when I can't save you.

i wrote this a little while back after seeing my girl getting weaker ):