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Journal entry...Yeeeeeep. Lotta stuff I gotta type down. As you know, when I type down these words, I don't hold anything back at all...What do you want me to write? I can't lie to myself...Roll with the blows I guess..Now, where do I start..?



I didn't type a journal yesterday, mainly because the whole day was boring and not that interesting..Most of the whole day and night wasn't interesting just boring...I talked to the same people that I usually talk to. 12 year old friend, Emily friend, Old old friend that I got in contact with via SUPER old PM. It was the usual...I was broke so I played some bootygrab and played zOMG for a bit and got like 30k. So I bought an item and got broke again..Haaaaaa. Needz to make some gold. x]



Anyways...I talked to my usual peepz. My 12 year old friend seems rather depressed lately... D:
Been trying to cheer her up...It's some issues... ><


And Emily's boyfriend broke up with her. Aweeeeeeeeeeeee. That's so sad. ><


Just a lot of issues. DD:


Had a friend name her new dog "Bubble" after my old dog. Who got kidnapped a long time ago and we never saw it again. >< So I guess you can say she was paying tribute to Bubble. xd But the dogs a boy..Ewww. Lawlz.



Basically...What I've been doing is going to sleep late and waking up late..Not good. neutral


And my hair is growing back...Sucks right? It's been like a week and it's already growing back so fast..And I can't even take any pictures because I have no batteries...Aweeee. And even if I do, it's not going to look as good when I first got it. >< Oh well...We'll see what happens.



So, a couple of big things happened....Like I told ya. I guess "The Girl from Across The World" read my journals and sorta sent me some hate mail. Sorreh... ><
I need to talk to her... D:

She seems really mad at me..But the time difference is huge..I don't think it's easy to talk together. ><

I really dunno what's going to happen....



I've also been talking to this random person who PM'd me. Well..Two of them. One sent me a video of her front flipping into the water..POW! Flat on the back..LOL. Sounded like it sorta hurted..And the other read my "About me" and decided to PM me. Aweeee. How sweet. x]



I'm looking out the window...And it's cloudy and sunny and looks all sunsetting type of scene...Sorta depressing...And Emily also sent me a goodbye song of some kind..A sad theme also...DD: Getting me all depressed right now..But I'm still listening to it..


I'm feeling abnormally cold..I think I need to take my nightly shower to feel a bit better.. >< It's 8:15 pm but it's still sunny as hell outside..A sunset theme...Niiice...The clouds are orange...Even better... D:



I'm feeling very lonely right now...An awkward type of loneliness...The type of loneliness where all you want is a hug. Somebody to be close to you. Ya know? I don't know..A close warmful hug...? I can dig one right now. The song ended, back to my playlist.


Oh yeah..."You and Me - Lifehouse" just turned on....Sorreh..Just now, I literally, and I mean literally..Just went to Hollywood and stayed there for like an hour..Anywayz..Back to what I was saying.


Last night I went to towns, bored as ever. Why? I was going to meet up with a friend but she took too long. Aaaaaand she left. So I went to one of those ******** topics. Yeah, yeah, don't judge me, I was hella bored. LOL. So anyways, I went there, "BOOM!" it's packed as hell. Buncha noobs. Buncha rich Gaian's. Pretty much all just standing there.


So, what did I do? I went there, talking to myself and random strangers. Yeah, that's right, ballz of steel. xd I had a little stalker friend who was stalking me a bit as well. She's funny. Pockii girl. Lawlz. I was talking to person to person. Met a REALLY old friend of mines. Had a little chat with him. Then I randomly started talking to this one chick. Oddly enough, we started hitting off.


May I remind you, it was late last night when I met her. We were talking about all sorts of things. From her pink cotton candy avatar to me "suppose" to being smarter than her because I'm Asian then all of a sudden she tells me that she's Asian. xd Talk about a Fail right? Asked her where she was from, and I guessed Cali before she can say anything. And sure enough, she's from Cali. She is also from Wisconsin. IKR?! Freakish enough. She basically travels back and forth since her parents are divorced....So she goes from Wisconsin to Cali very often. She's mixed. I know..Mixed Asian...I'm Jelly. xd


She's Japanese...And Hmong. Oh wait, ANOTHER Hmong person?! Another one?! One like me?! Yeah...She's half hmong. Just in case you don't know, I'm Hmong. 100% Hmong. She's half and half. Half Japanese half Hmong. So yeah, things got REALLY interesting. She's an Amazing person. I thought I was Awesome since I speak two languages fluently. However, she speaks 3. Japanese, Hmong, and English all fluently. Wow...I'm even MORE Jelly. It was a really fun conversation. Talked about all sorts of shtuff.


Really cool person...Even had her on my status for a sec. xd "Just met the most AMAZING person biggrin D". And I guess she replied to my status. Something like "Just met this dude who is soooo cute <3" Not sure but it was something like that...I know right?!? Awwwwwwwwww. Yeaaaaaaaa shaaaaadaaaaaaaap. I guess she saw my profile? And later today she told me she did. She so sweet. xd



And so, that was it for yesterday. My day was pretty average until late last night...She's a great person. Stayed up late for no reason, like 3 am. Fell asleep and woke up at 12...


Got on Gaia, didn't really do anything but talk to my usual people. And whaddya know? She get's on again. Needless to say...We hung out once more. Hollywood this time...She's so cwute. xd We pretty much did a whole buncha random things. But, I can't lie, we were flirting a bit...Ya know? Flirting. Flirting here and there....Yeah..She's really growing on me... ><


And then she told me she had to leave. So she left. About 10 mins later, she came on Meebo and we talked on there. Out of the blue, she started showing me some pictures of her..I know right? Well....Needless to say...She's one of those people who look so good, that you think to yourself, "Man, I have no chance at all with her/him". But you know what? I'm reaching for the highest apples anyways. I don't care...And she called me cute and blahblahblah. And I told her she don't even know how I look like and she proved me wrong by telling me she looked on my pro and that I am "Up there" with the apples in the appletree...Yeahhhhhh...Self esteem and confidence booster. x]



And then I left for a bit. I came back on and she was gone. Hung out a bit. Talked to some friends. 12 year old friend and old friend from my old PM's. Talked a bit here and there...Boyfriends, dating, some other crap. Acting foolish. xd
Then she messaged me. So, I left the crew and went back to Hollywood. Oh yeah, we hung out again. But there's a cache. She was hanging out with one of her "ex" and RIGHT off the bat, I can tell that he liked her. Ooooooooh damn!!!!!! Talk about a little competition right? So yeah..We hung out a bit. The flirting went down a bit. I checked out his profile and his comments. I'm being such a stalker right now....LOL. She told him she wanted to be "friends" and he understood...So I'm guessing they're just friends...?



Still, I'm a bit Jelly. I'm sure most of you guys have had that feeling before. While I was checking out his profile, I came back and she was gone. I guess she left. So, I told everybody I was going to brb to restart my laptop. In which I did. Restarted it, got back on Gaia and she was online again. Told me her connection got turned off for a bit. I understand. Anyways...Right then and there, I started typing my journal and shtuff. Kept typing, and typing...Then I finally went to hollywood to hang out with her and her "friend". Ironically, right when I got there, he had to leave. Sooo. Just me and her. And she wanted to go swimming. So she said brb to go change. Aaaaaaand I came back to type this journal. She came back, we went swimming in hollywood.



Since the guy was gone, the flirting started back up. Flirted here and there...And did I tell you that she was growing on me? So yeah, we was talking yadda, yadda, yadda. I had some thoughts in my head. WHAT IF she was one of those girls who just plays with a guys heart and breaks it EASILY?! So of course, I kept a distance. So she was randomly giving me a hug and whatnot. She told me "I want to do this or I'm not going to do this at all". And what did she do? Yeahhhhhhhh. She did the unfathomable. The unthinkable. The unscrutinizable action of kissing me? Whoaaaaaaaaaah Za, Whoaaaaaaaaah. What the ******** are yuh thinking SON?!


Right when she did that, she "shyly" walked away. I said brb of course...I needed some time to think about what I was going to do..And I made my decision...Yeah..I'm being bad...I kissed her. D:


COME ON ZA! YOU BARELY KNOW HER!? WTF ARE YUH DOING!? Oh well. I'm giving this a shot. D: She took it...Fairly well.. xD
And then we got touchy with feelings....Yeahhhhhhhh. I didn't wanna get hurt she told me, I told her, we talked about the past losers who hurted us and whatnot and the scars and the other shizz that sucks hard.


Got a little deep here and there..And she told me she wasn't ready for a relationship right now. Ouch...A nice little blow, right? So, I told her to ask me anything she wants. I'll answer all of them honestly. And I did..We did about two questions. And she had to go...Yeah...That sucked. Of course, before she left we touched on a lot of things, a lot of different feelings, but we never really got DEEP into a conversation..I don't really know what's our relationship status right now..Are we going out? Are we complicated? I dunno...But before she left, she asked for my number because she wanted to text. What did I do? I gaved her my number...I'm guessing she wrote it down somewhere.



After she left, I came back here to type my journal. Talked to my friends...And what happens? I check my voicemail..And she left me a little cute voice message. xd She sounds so shy and adorable. xD!!!! I REALLY did not expect her to try and call me. It was out of the blue. Oh well..It was REALLY cute and I admire her for that. She got some ballz. xd And I mean that in a good way. I don't know how she woulda responded if I answered the call though...My voice is deep..When I say deep, I mean DEEP. Like..Rlly, rlly deep. I dunno. xd I look like, I don't have a deep voice, but surprise, I gots a deep voice..



Needless to say...It's bad that I'm falling for her. neutral

We'll see what happens....That's about it for today...Thank you for reading..Reminder that this is uncut emotional material from my life..Your probably digging it right now, I don't know. This is a place where I don't lie for whatsoever reason. It's all real. Again, thank you for reading.



Hopefully the next journal will come out soon. I don't proofread..So sorry if I made errors..I know your looking forward to the next one...Lol. Thank you, thank you.



p.s. I probably left some things out..Oh well. Sorreh bout that..