words unspoken,
left here to break
and keep broken!
It has been crushed.
It has been molded;
torn, shattered, and dead.
All of it!
My heart, not my head.
I keep putting it in the blender
It runs red and gullible…
Little bit of lies, some more bullshit.
What’s another cup of bitter almonds?
I know its a waste!
I know we clash!
I know mistakes!
I know our past!
I know a lot of things keep us apart
the miles between states,
a lack of substance in conversation,
your laziness and motivation.
Then there’s the flip side.
The forbidden and untouchable.
The strange and unusual!
To lose a friend?… I’m not capable.
I go to a place,
lonely in solitude.
As I contemplate hate
when I’m not supposed to.
I have conflicting thoughts.
I mistake deity’s.
There’s no one to blame…
just defective reality.
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