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So moving on in life is a journey that we all have and need. We always need to hold on to hope. With out hope and dreams we have nothing to look forward to in this life. When I was diagnosed they the ER worker doctor put me in the hospital that night and started me on Morphine for the pain I was having. I really think it was kinda suicide watch also . But unknown to them that was not needed. I was raised that to kill one self is doomed to hell for eternity. That is not my choice, Heaven is where I want to go and I'll speak more next time on this. But for now when being put in the hospital all that kept going across my mind was the fact that My boys Matt and Gordon would not have their mom and I would not get to see my grandson and he would not even know me. That was probably the hardest thing for me to think about and come to terms about the things that really matter the most. since that stay I have learned to take each day God has given me and make the best of those days cause we no one has any idea when it's will be their time to go from this life on earth!

My grandson is 3 years old and when he come to my house the first word from his mouth is grandma! What a true blessing that is!!!