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Have you heard that song called "i don't care" by Three days grace? For some odd reason I really do feel like I really don't care anymore things have been different the last time we talk-ish you know I don't really understand it myself anymore. My roommate moved out and without a word just a note but for some reason it feel like a scene from an anime i seen but between my pain that keeps me up at nights and the danger that happen in Japan my life could be shitty if you can say that. Oh, I just ate five corndogs today and yet I feel hungry mostly upset I didn't get to top ten in the arena and i feel like i failed everyone because of it. oh by the way did you know I'm turn 21 in April I'm not too happy even some people tells me "you're like a child" i think someone told me i sound like a 16 year old on vocaroo now i feel upset even with the whole "You aren't mature enough" well i dont seem to understand anybody anymore even all i see are just people hurting themselves.
i saw battle: L.A. free but i like it even its one of those movies that show why America is such a kick a** even people hate them for lots of reason i just hate them for making my life hard as it is. even with the whole Japan deserve it bullshit. I still don't think they know that earthquakes are common in Japan well stupid people are stupid people oh yeah!! did you know someone drew a nude picture of my avi and I'm pretty like wow too it even with the whole ayame taiushi date sim game that someone made but seen like it was removed bring me the question "Is it a good idea?" someone told me if I'm an official vocaloid, utau, fanmade or trying to be official but all i said "I don't want to be official anything" even i seen a user used nico singer voice for an utau character and now this makes me think with Yowane Haku as its miku voice just down pitch pretty upsetting isn't?
i don't know if you're still reading this but i do feel lost and with everyone saying its the end of the world just makes me think if the only reason why its the end is because they want it to be the end all i would say its just chaos and life is chaos but do you think if it happening just because? i heard rumor and lots of it but i wish some of them doesn't always happen because of me even when its movies that i want to see but im just thinking for all that happen and all that i try to jam in my throat but people dont seen to have an open mind. . .
i guess im just chit chatting about nothing again even im just blown and lost in this world but i do want to be around someone right now because i was crying the last few days even if Japan dies and gone for good then it seem I dont have a home to go back too. now what? my worst fears are notices but thats just me thinking if it gonna blow and the meltdown happens i heard but dont know its true that it already blow. my tooth still hurts and i need to go to a dentist but now what what should i do? i cant find one thats what sad but i feel lost again thinking about it but now im noticing something different. . .um are you still reading this? . . .kay I was just wondering is all. thats just funny. i broke the fourth wall again silly me sorry sorry oh yeah do you think i'm getting annoying to you? i do feel sleeping and i have to up the pain killer just to save for the night but what would happen if i dont am i gonna stay up and i also heard theyre a ghost in this apartment.
somebody drew me like how would i look like in real life that i thought was cute. i might upload it in facebook and i dont need to put the link i believe you could find it with so many other junk that you can find about me. google magic baby... inside joke oh thats another thing everyone is making these curl jokes and its all crap i feel sorry about that really and can you um... not even me that look.
did you know i have a foot fetish yeah i know im odd but i cant be all that bad i believe someone did a short fanfic about me and Kaito i kind of laugh really because its so cute and funny. did anybody ever told you that you have such wonderful eyes eeh! im just saying don't give me that look ^ ~ ^
right now im kind of down for the count really but my scanner doesnt work anymore i dont know whats wrong with it and i still cant beat airman i think i got so much to say but i dont think you want to hear it. i still feel like crying for some reason not because of the whole thing i have to deal with myself but the whole you fail ayame oh thats another thing people keep saying ayami or they cant say it at all atleast say it in English people It's Iris. thats funny somebody ask me for my name and i say its ayame and person doesnt believe me so i said okay its Iris and the person was like theyre you go i wonder he/she knows it still falls on the line for Ayame and Ayame isn't just a girl name people i still wonder my plan work to make people think im odd
i feel odd now oh oh oh oh oh guess what... peanut butter i guess i have no idea what to put or say beside talking about out dated junk
~ayame