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I don't like the fact that I hang out with a group of guys. I mean yeah, there are alot of benefits like no drama, they'll protect you, they're not boring, they're funny as hell, but..I miss hanging out with girls sometimes. Dx I don't feel like I fit in with them, anyway. There are a couple of girls that is in my group of friends, but I don't talk to them as much as the guys. Guys are just easier to talk to for me. I always think that girls are judgmental, which is probably not true.

The guys I hang out with don't care if I'm awkward, whatever I'm wearing, or what I look like, seriously. I don't want a girl to come up to me and be like "OH HI VANESSA...why are you wearing that? -.-" It's..ugh, it's so annoying and pointless. And it does kindof hurt me a little bit. Lower self esteem and stuff. xD I'll actually try be girly sometimes..not really lol. I'll dress nice some days but that's about it. ;P I wish I knew more girls that were like me. :c It'd be really awesome to have a friend that's like me, that's like a girl. It seems like everyone changed their personalities drastically, except for me.

NEWTOPICCHANGE.

I want to go on my bike. Right now. And feel the wind in my face as I go down a steep hill. I want to ride by the water. I want to ride in the rain, feeling the cold rain hitting my face. I want to ride at night at the Elementary school next to me, only the street lights brightening the pavement. When I bike, faster and faster, I feel free. A tiny little adrenaline rush. I feel like I'm flying. I forget alot of the struggles I have in life. It's like I'm riding to escape reality for a little while. I love the feeling of my hair flowing as I bike super fast.

But I kinda want to fix up my bike, but my dad hasn't done anything yet. D: All I want to do is paint it. >.< I also wanted to get new wheels, but my dad was lyk "NU. U GET NU WHEELZ." Idk. I don't think he was able to find any. If I paint it, it'll be black. Simple. :3

I really wish that I got a new bike, though. Dx My bike kinda makes it hard to go up hills considering I've had that bike since I was like..nine? LOL. I haven't grown much, so it's still the right size for me. -.- I want a GOOD BIKE THOUGH! Mine doesn't go fast enough. Yet..I kinda like my bike, because I trust it alot. xD Like it's a horse or something, idk. When I ride other bikes I always think I'm going to fall, but on MY bike which I've had for sooo long, I can make sharp turns and make it go as fast as I can with absolutely no fear of getting hurt.

lol random post about girls and bikes......GIRLS AND BIKES. SOUNDS LIKE A GUY THING. OHHOHOHOHO~

Okay, bye. xD I'm super bored. :c

I LOVE DUBSTEP.

~Vanessa